It's finally happened... after seven or eight years of talking, leaving, disappearing, talking again.. we are a couple.

It's now getting cooler.

We've had a couple 0°c days, but.. only like two.







The ground is covered in yellow, orange, brown, and red leaves.
This is my favorite part of the year. I love all the leaves on the ground, and the cold.




I saw Midnight in Paris in the theatre. From what I saw of it, I liked it.
Why do I feel so happy, and yet so terrible at the same time?
I should only be feeling one..

The weather is going to be the death of me. Which is a cruel joke, since the entire ecosystem is fucked up because of the drought going on here in Texas. It makes me miss Umeå even more.

I miss the cold, the cool breeze even in the summer time. A nice cup of hot coffee and some sort of cake or desert, sitting in a cafe.. enjoying company with friends. I know I shouldn't have given it up for Sean, he didn't even want me to for him. He wanted me to stay if it made me happy, except I was unhappy without him, as if I wasn't entirely complete. I can't say I'm unhappy here.. but I do very much dislike parts of it.



I want to be at Umeå University, I want to be in the cold, I want to be with my old group of friends. But I enjoy being with Sean a great deal more than that.

I guess I'm just reminiscing more because of the heat here, the lack of things to do other than drink, eat, shop or club.

I really like my work though. I like being paid, I love that I'm going to UT Dallas to study Psychology, I love my boyfriend and that he's here in Dallas also.



It's mostly money problems.

I'll figure it out.